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| Four months left in Danville, IL. It seems just like yesterday that I moved to IL and left my friends and family for this goal of becoming a nurse. I wanted it so badly that I just left everything behind. So off I went! Was it tough being alone in the Midwest/middle of nowhere/farm town AND it was winter season?!? YES. I technically never had to leave. I graduated, found a job, was living away from home, had the freedom to go out and spend money, and was able to pay my bills at the same time. I could have just stayed, I probably would have done alright. But, I just had this goal that I wanted to meet. It's that bullet train of life that I keep talking about. hahahaha Trina and Anne know what I'm talking about. Get on, get off, or get out of my way. Now that it's coming to an end, I wonder what else is next for me. I'll have to hash that one out, but I have time. I guess I'm just happy with the decision I made. It was for me, I made it for myself. Of course I had my mom in the back of my head, but she never pushed me to become a nurse. I pushed myself. I had an idea of what I wanted, figured out how to get there (with like a billion backup plans), and off I went. I got there. I guess I'm proud. I never would have moved to the Midwest if not for my insane commitment to the idea of becoming a nurse. I learned a lot about myself, living alone and away from everyone does that to you. It gives you an entirely different perspective on what was, what could be, and what will be. You have this deeper appreciation for your family. You realize that you can definitely do things on your own. You find out what you're capable of. You find that alone time is enough. You don't need to go out all the time. You don't need to always be doing something. You realize how to appreciate the little things in life. I love my routine. I love living alone in my apartment. I love that Rogue is my roommate. I guess I"m just appreciative of everything that I've been blessed with. I have not done it all, but i guess I'm proud of where I've been. It's cheesy, but darn it I am proud.  | | |
| It's March already. In fact, we are only a couple of days away from April. Once again, the Spring semester has proven itself to be the faster of either semesters. Valentine's Day came, my 1 yr with the boy, and so did Spring Break. It's all gone by so fast and before you know it I'll be back in CA! I thought it would take forever and thinking about the boredom I initially felt when moving out here, alone...I know that I'm going to miss it. It was a great learning experience and I'm proud of moving, but I do miss the family and friends. However, I know that I"ll miss lots of things as well when I leave. Who knows what I'll be doing a year from this day...I hope I've passed the NCLEX that's for sure! But what else I wonder....I guess I'll just have to wait it out.
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| 1 year. It's been a year since January 1st when my mom and I drove halfway across the country to the good old midwest. How time flies indeed. I am now in my 3rd semester, with only 1 more to go...odd! How odd! My time back in CA was long, but definitely not long enough. It was filled w/ family, but not too many friends...just the SD but no LB. So sad, so sad. Well it just was not meant to be in the schedule. School beckoned and most importantly the family. Of course I was the driver and hence I did not have time to meet up with anyone. Plus, we really only have the van and God please don't let me drive the van far, far away. I already brought it to Dave & Buster's! Hahahaha twice. I have finally grown accustomed to my surroundings and have learned to appreciate the differences between CA and IL. Coming back to IL, this time around, I was not really dreading it too much. It's surprising really. This is my, I believe, last full winter in IL. Of course things and plans always change, but as of right now...this is my last full winter season here. Uhmazing. I have definitely learned a lot living alone and away from all things comfortable. Of course I picked up a boyfriend and a dog, but hey I don't live close to the boy so it's not like I see him everyday. Which I oddly enough like. I see him enough and ample amount of times, I think. It's good for us. | | |
| I feel oddly old. I just watched the final show of TRL. 10 years! 1998, WOW. It's weird that I would associate myself with TRL. but that was my 8th grade and a good portion of my high school life right there. Backstreet Boys, Britney Spears, Christina, Destiny's Childe, N'Sync...I mean come on...such classic Pop Icons. Hahahaha well that's it the end of an era...we have officially been marked as getting older. | | |
| It's so weird living in the Midwest - living alone and busy studying. You don't really have too much time for phone calls b/c when you do have time you just want to relax, eat, do errands, etc. It makes you feel so detached to the world you once took part in. New laughs, new memories, new everything - it gets a little weird realizing that the world you were once a part of is still going and doing their thing. It's not jealousy, just a hint of sadness perhaps since you can't be there to partake in the laughs, memories, blah blah blah. Seriously, thank God for the dog and thank God for the boyfriend. Otherwise, it would have been some crazy time moments out here. | | |
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